i’m so glad to finally have the first issue done! this was definitely a milestone i’m happy to say i’ve finally reached and overcome!! i say overcome, cuz for me, milestones are a hell of a challenge to actually achieve.
unlike how i wrote “chapter parts” in the past, i didn’t have a song in mind yet until the tail end of the issue’s production . i was torn between the new style by the beastie boys and makin more music by esham for the featured song of this issue, as i’ve been on somewhat of a esham trend as of late. what can i say, i’ve always tended to get really into things again after a period of passive interaction, and esham’s music just so happened to be the interest i was getting back into. i decided on keeping that particular song for a different issue, as well as reserving esham’s music for specific characters who i feel would to an extent better embody the music. or simply characters who listen to and appreciate acid rap.
i think the new style actually works really well, on a more figurative and literal sense. the latter being the new artistic direction and start to my new version of jsrx, and the former being better tied with the context behind the song. apparently the former members of the group came out in later years and spoke up about how they regretted the tone and lyrics of their first album (and by extensions the new style) for its toxic masculine attitude and insensitive lyrics. from my understanding of it, the more macho boys-culture stuff in their earlier music wasn’t sincere on their part, and only was there to appeal to that said culture. whether earnest or not the songs still exist, but if true, i like how that also plays into yoyo’s character. even though i didn’t learn any of this until after i put the song on his character playlist, a lot of his character is similar with that sort of “guy’s guy manly-dude” front he has that isn’t sincere and more so born out of insecurity. idk, i put too much thought into these things, but even tho unintended i think it’s an interesting parallel at the very least :^/
i don’t know how to feel to be honest. happy? relieved? dreadful? its like the more i think about it, the worse i feel. i think it’s cuz its hard for me to live in the moment and be happy of my success, and i’m more so concerned about whats to come. i haven’t started working on the second issue just yet, even though i completed the first issue not even less than an hour ago. i go back and notice little mistakes too, but at this point if i don’t release it now than i never will release it. maybe that’s why i feel slightly unhappy, it’s cuz it isn’t perfect. nothin will ever be perfect though, so i just gotta live with it. it’s already leagues better than the original, so that’s at least comforting.
it might never be as popular as the original run of Jet Set Remix I did back in 2021, but i don’t think i want it to be. that means more eyes on my work, and more scrutiny on how i want to tell the story. i don’t like that, i want to be free to do what i want without worrying about how much people will like it. whatever happens, i’m gonna keep doing it my way, and not compromise my story cuz some mf halfway across the globe thinks i don’t write enough romance or something like that. maybe it’ll be the opposite and people will get pissed i write too many gay characters? that would be kinda funny lol. anyways that doesn’t matter, what matters is that it’s done and it’s time to get back to work.
